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The book is AWSOME.

the BIG move

It's official. Beanie has moved into a booster seat.

She fits is perfectly. No issues with the seatbelt or anything. She is so proud of her new seat as are we.

Scooter is very jealous...poor boy....I'm not readdy for him to grow up yet.

Did i mention that beanie is in a booster seat? I remember just yesterday she was coming home for the hospital...then going forward facing....where is the time going?

Zella Sanford

Welcome to the world and welcome home Zella Sanford.

Aunt Sarah and Uncle Sam have joined the parenthood club.

Born monday at 2:23pm was Ms. Zella Sanford.

Seeing the pictures is awsome and i can't wait to meet her in person...all 19inches of her!

The boy

I used to snuggle with beanie. I would read her a book and tell her all the things she did right that day, then i'd snuggle with her for a few moments as she fell fast asleep.

This is how it should be...this is NOT how it is with the boy.

Hubby started snuggling with the boy just as I snuggled with beanie. The problem came when Michael had to work late one night and I put th ekids to bed. See, when the kids go to bed, I have mommy time. So i do laundry, dishes, watch tv, knitting...or most day, go to bed. Logan didnt seem to like this.

he would stand at his gate screaming. He would kick the gate against the door frame, kick his door into the wall, throw toys...and anything else he could think of. this went on for months...yes, months.

until.......I saw an episode on Super Nanny. So now, I read a book to both kids, hug them and walk him to bed. I tuck him in and wait at the door. When he gets up (which he always does) I walk him back to bed without saying a word (which is very hard for me). I wait by the door until he settles in...about 7 min or so...then i go about my usually nighttime stuff. the major difference, i don't close the gate until i go to bed. This seems to have stopped the tantrums and he goes to bed quicker.

Who would have thought. It's just too bad that it took me months to find this out.

parenting

after reading battle hymn of the Tiger mother...I realized a few things.

A-my kids have little respect for me most of the time.

B-i need to change how i do things

So tonight at McDonalds.....I did. Beanie threw her coins(not real) because she wasnt getting icecream for fighting with her brother. Her favorite thing to say is "you're nasty". This she picked up from school..how nice.

anyway...she threw her coins on the ground and for once I didnt go back to get them. i guess I'm tired of them throwing things either at me or down in anger. They need to learn that these things will stay there...that there are consequences to what they do with their things.

Is this punishment too harsh? am I over-reacting or should we have been doing this all along. Have I taught me kids to disrespect me? Is it too late to instill the fear of mommy in them?

Easter Bunny weekend

Easter weekend started out with Church on friday night (to make room for others on sunday...and they had some cool activities for the kids after service). Then on to burgers for dinner.

Saturday morning I popped out of bed at 7am...took beanie with me to get free trees from Lowes for Earth day and picked up a few other things while we were there. Then home to fill some eggs for the egg hunt at 10am that's put on by our neighborhood every year.

The kids had a blast. Logan shook the eggs to see if it made noise, if it didnt, he put it back assuming it was empty. Beanie did great. She even helped some other smaller kids look for eggs after she was all done.

Off to lowes again for my new faucets for the master sinks...that was a nightmare, but they look awsome.

Sunday friends came over and had Easter breakfast with us, bringing with them the kids baskets. It was awsome that Jen made the kids baskets. She did an awsome job. Games, tattoos, and ofcourse...candy. Thank Jim and Jen...we all appriciate what you do for the kids.

and then there's monday...blah

my site

since this is for the kids...this one is for me

www.waitimnotstrappedin.blogspot.com

The Boy's Birthday

Logan celebrated his 3rd birthday. Where does the time go. It was a
small crowd, but very awsome. He got some Chugginton toys, cars, lots
of sugar and lots of spoiling.

I remember the day he was born. It was heart-wrenching. All I wanted
to hear was him cry. He was born on 4-4 weighing 4-4 at 6:46am. He was
so tiny I was afrid we'd break him. i remember sleeping with him while
he was in the NICU. I'd spend all day long with beanie, then sleep at
the hospital during kangaroo care.

Last night we snuggled. he fell sleep in my arms. i know that those
days are all too quickly coming to an end. I love how he puts his head
down and run at me at full speed, laughing the whole way. How he can
ram his heading into a solid object, shake it off and keep going. how
he can take all his shots, not cry and ask for chocolate WHILE getting
his shots.

Such an amazing little man, so full of life and energy. Brave and bold
and not afriad of life.

The other birthday gift...he has a small case of pnemonia. his
reward...a nebulizer, more antibiotics and lots of rest. kid took
everything like a champ. Well, the xrays, atleast. he started the
breathing treatment tonight.

Sometimes being a parent is scary. i'm not afraid to say that I'm
scared. This is what i feared when it came to the boy. So small..so
fragile. i know he's not, but to know that something got into his
lungs that i can't protect him from and could land him in the hospital
is scary.

lax parenting?

I had taken the kids to the local park. There is one way in and one
way out. i was sitting under some shade relaxing (we had biked there).
My kids had wandered over to the swings and asked another mother there
to push them. She did.

Then she asked where mommy was, hearing this, i got up and walked
over. She scolded me for leaving my kids...stating that they seem to
just walk up to everyone. While this is not true, it did get me
thinking.

As parents, do we relax more than we should in an area where we feel
that are kids are safe after a certian age? Are we calmed into
thinking that parks fenced in are safe from the monsters that lurke in
the shadows?

If fenced in parks are not safe for our kids to explore on their own
while still in ear shot and a quick glance around, then where,
otherthan the house, are they safe for exploration.

i would say school, but even there the monsters lurke. Either teachers
that act inappropriatly or the bullies that roam the halls looking for
kids to target for terror.

What will the next years be like for our kids?
How safe will things be for our grandkids?

Both kids are in tumble tots together...that gives me 45 minutes of me time...rock on!

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Uncle tom and beanie

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Her reply..no mommy...just little farts.

Beanie...have you been farting alot? I ask her

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Scooter...does sister talk too much?

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(2 of 2) everywhere...stuck like glue

(1 of 2) At the mall. Kids were up at 7am...now it's 10:30am and I am soooooo tired. Nap cnt come soon enough. Scooter is following big sister

Beanies favorite phrase..."mommy I took a big nap" and this only after laying down for 10 min or so. Kids!!!!

update

things are way better, the kids are home, that kind of sucks, but everything else is better.

Michael has lost the weight…so thrilled about that, our romance has gotten back on track and things are getting back to basics. i couldn’t be happier and i’ve been working over the holidays.

today I love my life. im on the right meds for the depression, though its taken almost a year to get there, that was a rough year, but i can now manage the depression and work through it, it doesnt seem to consume me like it used to. I have figured out that a good cry and a chat usually do the trick and restore things back to normal. either that or a good nights sleep. i have a few more friends in my life, some are old…some are new..both are welcomed.

Beanie seems to be making new friends as well, which is nice. she used to be like me wheni was going through the first round of depression, she was reclusive and that made it hard for her to make friends, but sicne i’ve changed, so have both the kids. they are happier and easier to be around. i know that most of it started and ended with me, that the kids become what we are and that mekes getting through things harder. If i cant help myself, how can i help those around me, including the kids?

i even got the husband to do some research to help him deal with what i am dealing with on a daily basis..they say a little knowledge is dangerous, int his case it turned out to be the truth. for a brief moment in time Michael thought I was bi-polar. nope, just your run of the mill depression. good, one less thing for me to stress over! I’ve gotten loads of support from both friends and family, even the kids are noticing when i have a bad day and they hug me and make it all better.

the fair has come and gone, as has my mom and michael's dad is coming over for a day to hang...awsome. the kids are excited, as they should be. it's always great to see family...and friends.

home

nope, its not what you think. i havent gone home nor am i planning on going home...atleast not this month.

The kids are home wtih me now since my hours got cut from 36+ to 16hrs a week. I work 8 on fri and 8 on saturday. makes for a rough weekend, but i get the best of both worlds. I get to work and i get to hang with the kids and the husband.

it has been hard having them both home, but we are all adjusting to the idea.

it's all good. i have connnected my phone to this blog so that i can update it as current as I manage to keep facebook updated. i know this kind of dropped off the planet, but the holidays are over and things can go back to normal. I have even gotten back into reading books again. I miss the books, my poor nook has been so underused it's scary. that will change, nook, i promise i will wear you out.